Why things always have to go to the extremem? haha sometimes i am really sick and tired of life.. why? one thing is ppl always like to make assumptions.. assumptions assumptions assumptions really make me very very very irritated u know? guess u all dunno.. fuck lar who cares just dun make assumptions.. i dun like it when ppl have to keep making assumptions that whenever i dun wan to do these or that things den it will have to link to her.. why?? this way not only make her feel pressurise, humans are pathetic idiotic fuckers who always make assumptions including myself.. what the hell u all wan? u all wan to see it as this way den why it has to be me who is at fault?? WHY?? is it becoz i make u all think that way? is it? is it? tell me!! FINE!! my fault happy? shiok? everything is my fault song? make all of u feel satisfied? if yes, i am glad.. NO? ur prob.. bang against the wall or wad? fuck!


posted by Guang at 10:24 PM

Do you ever feel like breaking down?Do you ever feel out of place?Like somehow you just don’t belongAnd no one understands youDo you ever wanna run away?Do you lock yourself in your room?With the radio on turned up so loudThat no one hears you screamingNo you don’t know what it’s likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don’t know what it’s like to be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you’re downTo feel like you’ve been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one’s there to save youNo you don’t know what it’s likeWelcome to my lifeDo you wanna be somebody else?Are you sick of feeling so left out?Are you desperate to find something moreBefore your life is over?Are you stuck inside a world you hate?Are you sick of everyone around?With the big fake smiles and stupid liesWhile deep inside you’re bleedingNo you don’t know what it’s likeWhen nothing feels alrightYou don’t know what it’s like to be like meTo be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you’re downTo feel like you’ve been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one’s there to save youNo you don’t know what it’s likeWelcome to my lifeNo one ever lied straight to your faceAnd no one ever stabbed you in the backYou might think I’m happy But I’m not gonna be ok!Everybody always gave you what you wantedYou never had to work it was always thereYou don’t know what it’s likeWhat it’s like!To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you’re downTo feel like you’ve been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one’s there to save youNo you don’t know what it’s like (what it's like)To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kickedWhen you’re downTo feel like you’ve been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downAnd no one’s there to save youNo you don’t know what it’s likeWelcome to my lifeWelcome to my life Welcome to my life


posted by Guang at 7:01 PM

Staring Time:11.15pm.. Recession is the word to use. Yes! i am having the recession of my life. At first, tot i am reaching the peak of my life but instead it is disaster in disguise, what a surprise. Pathetic is the word to describe myself. Why? my senses seem to be detaching itself from me tat explains why i am senseless & stupid.. Fuck myself n fuck my life.. how long tis recession going to last.. tis seem to be the same problem that occurs to me 6 years ago.. Unfortunately, this time round seem to be more serious. Am i stupid enuff to fall into this situation again during the recession?? Yeah but i cant help it.. really cant help it, Oh MAN fuck the world, my life, myself but not soccer.. NOT trustworthy is another word to describe myself.. Yes that is the truth.. cant escape or hide.. absolutely true. WHY? i dunno.. Who cares about how i feel? NO ONE! Ya tat i agree.. humans are selfish creatures including myself.. but now in this world, nthing i am looking foward to.. maybe yes.. but tat fantasy is fading away.. too far for me to reach it.. it is indeed far.. sad? yes i am but what can i do.. blame it on myself why i still dunno.. anyway fuck the world, my life and MYSELF most importantly.. FILL IN THE BLANKS!! Although i dun agree ppl keep saying they wish to die.. but i really hope i die right now.. just give me a freaking heart attack or what.. but is death the answer to all the problems answer is NO and it is not to end ur misery as you may not know where you may go after you die.. maybe worst than the moment you were breathing.. so just fuck the world, my life and MYSELF. Maybe the problems lie within me Yes it me.. just like to say i am sorry for all the unhappy moments caused.. curse me.. the lights are fading my path is unclear and soon it will be total darkness.. yes.. i am all alone but who cares! fuck the world, my life & MYSELF Ending Time:11.45pm


posted by Guang at 11:13 PM

My thoughts are like scattered beads.. every bead seems like the first and no matter how hard i tried, i still cant differentiate which is the first.. i am helpless maybe useless or maybe non existence.. like falling into a deep long coma.. maybe i should disappear? disappear into the thin air? i wish i could.. staying visible may make some ppl feel miserable or even unhappiness or even frustrated.. Once i disappear maybe the problem may just disappear with me.. not disappear but at least it will lessen the problem faced? It's not a solution but at least there is hope.. looking at how ppl feel happy without my existence may hasten my wish of disappearing into the thin air.. maybe is immediately instead of hasten.. my ending speech.. fuck the world.. lol

posted by Guang at 2:34 PM

Just came back from the camp.. feeling tired and exhausted. As usual, i came back with injuries on my right n left hands. but i do enjoy the camp.. that all for the camp.. everything seems bad to me, there are too many bad patches happening to my life n at the moment, all these bad patches cant be help maybe tat will include in the future.. Phew.. life really sucks & fuck the world; fuck everything too. loser is the word for me.. can i hold on n can i fight till the end, it stills remain a mystery.. maybe i should be in the back back ground instead of background..


posted by Guang at 7:50 PM

Sometimes things really seems to be going your way and sometimes it may not be.. why? how do you differentiate?? honestly it seem easy but in actual, it is really hard.. some just dun understand.. dun understand the way ppl think & feel.. misunderstanding may occurs.. but u just dunno wad they are thinking..


posted by Guang at 11:39 PM

There is no right to criticise for i am a bastard as well.. sometimes ppl just dun feel how stupid they are.. they dunno how sucky they can be as well and the funny part is they only know how to look at other ppl mistake but not themselves.. i ask god why life has to be so difficult, why human commit countless of sins. sometimes it is just super not logical that certain things happened in tat particular way.. human are stupid n i mean everyone and that does not exclude me.. they care but they are afraid of showing.. why? maybe they are afraid of chasing away something? or they are just plain evil which i can be the best example.. life is always sucky with me living in this world..


posted by Guang at 11:55 PM